I am glad to say that I had a very full weekend! I started with watching a child on Friday night, which was fun even though she didn't want me to read Harry Potter to her (she said she didn't like it!). Things went uphill from there. On Saturday I went to a get together for people I used to work with at a bar, and despite the crowd I did not have a panic attack. Then today I went to church, had friends over, and went to the platonic life partner's place for some great lasagna.
There is something to this being social thing. My therapist type people have been saying that it's something I should do, but I've just kind of not wanted to get out of my pity party of one. But there really is something to it. When I think about all the times that my depression was worse than normal, they were times when I was alone a lot. You would think that with my sparkling intellect I would have figured this out sooner.
Now that I have seen this, and also have the confidence to know that people do enjoy my presence, the difficult part will be picking up my phone and connecting with others. Also, I should probably keep my apartment clean so that I can have people over during this time of little money in my pocket. I think it will be worth it if I can pull it off, while remembering that I can have a pity party every once in a while because I am not perfect.
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