This morning I find myself doing some hardcore thinking. I've recently been given the offer to move in with a friend in Oregon (well, re-offered). The more I think about it and talk to my friends and loved ones about it, the more it looks like it's going to happen.

It's a scary and exciting possibility. I mean, who wouldn't want to live here?

I'd be living in a town, but great stuff like this isn't far away. In fact, this isn't even the best picture I have. The nature there alone makes me feel closer to God. Not to mention it rains lots there, which I love. My friend there is AHmazing and helps to inspire much happiness in me. Plus as an extra bonus, the only person I am going there to help is myself; which makes it amazingly better than every other time I have tried to leave my state.

But there are things that make me want to stay here, like...

My 12 yr old sister and neice. They are growing so fast!

Then there are my younger older sisters, who are pretty friggin awesome.

Then there are my best friend's children.

There are more things, but I really love these kids and don't want to leave them. It's scary...but then what isn't? Things are still up in the air. I'm glad it's a Sunday so I don't really think about all the things I have to do in a week.

I have no idea what I will decide, but I pray I will make the right choice. I have a couple months to think on it anyway, so I think that will help. And as selfish as it sounds, i would hope if I did leave people would miss me. I'd probably have to learn to return texts and emails a lot quicker than i do now.

More about this later. I started this post 2-3 days ago and hadn't been able to finish it. I'm sure this will take more words to go through.