I am sad and lethargic today, and I don't know why. Nothing bad happened to me yesterday or last night; heck I was even in a bar without anyone I knew for a while (well unless you count my cousin, but he was busy playing music on stage). I'm not going to say I didn't have short spurts of panic, but I did not freak out. For this, I am happy with myself.
I wanted to come on and write something deep and profound, but my mind seems to be working a tad slower while it adjusts to new meds. I might try going out again tonight, even if it means I have to watch people drink crap beer when I am not allowed alcohol. Bastards.
I don't know if I will go out. I know I don't want to go alone.Plus, it's helping me face my fears of being in crowds of people who could potentially judge me and verbally harass me with bad fat jokes.
So should I sleep or face my fears? We shall see....
face those muthatruckin fears lady!!
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